15 Minutes to Live

What can I say? Is my life the way I hoped it would be? I am a mother, wife, and veterinarian. These three things that I have wanted to be all my life but am I living a fulfilled life. I do have one thing I wish I could do more of and this is to help others. I feel like I am squandering my, as yet undiscovered, talents. First I don't know what my talents are. I can crochet. I have a spirit of compassion. I was blessed with a spirit of compassion in my patriarchal blessing but how do I share it. I feel like my compassion is tested daily by my boys. They try my patience. I know I must need to develop patience because I have opportunities to develop it daily. Now back to my original train of thought - I wish  I could use my talents to help others. I have always wanted to crochet blankets for the Linus project but they take a long time to make, maybe I should just start making things to share with others. I can continue to develop my talents in writing or I could of if I had time left.
I hope my kids know I love them.
To Rishy Lee - my eldest son, I know there are a lot of changes I would of made with raising you if I could do it over. I was learning with you and still am. You have taught me so much and I love you. Thank you.
To Quinn - you are my 2nd son, 2nd child, and my 2nd challenge. You have a wonderful spirit about you. I love how you love others and show that love. I love how you are so cute when you are frustrated/mad. I love you so much, more than words can say.
To Cole - Son #3, and my biggest challenge thus far. You are so sweet and smart. I have a lot to learn about how to teach you and guide you in a way you can understand. You definitely dance to the beat of your own drummer.
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To Devon - my baby, you are growing up so quickly it is unbelievable. If I were to die now you wouldn't remember me and that makes me sad but know that I would always be with you.
To Richard - my husband, my love, my eternal companion. I love you. I cannot say it enough. I hope it will be enough to get you through the rest of your life without me but we will be together eternally, just remember that. I love you.