Craving to Recharge

This week I have felt particularly introverted. I ran across an article, "12 Things Every Introvert Wishes You Understood" that accurately describes how I feel as an introvert. Number 7, "or stuck up, for that matter", was a big issue I had while working in full service veterinary practice, while dealing with clients.

It is #2, "Craving downtime doesn't mean they're anti-social," that is particularly meaningful to me this week. The article goes on to explain: "Introverts need time to recharge, but they still want to be with their friends after they've snagged that alone time. They're not anti-social; they're selectively social."

That has been me this week. I need downtime. I crave downtime. Usually I am not particularly anti-social. I rarely turn down invitations to do something because, honestly, they are few and far between, enough so that I don't feel overwhelmed. Sometimes I wish I had more friends to just hang out or go to a movie with but that is a story for another time. This week I have turned down invitations. I have found myself retreating into myself this week.

There was a trigger, something that completely drained me, that led to this behavior. I finally feel okay sharing this with more than just my immediate family (although sharing it with more than I wanted to, drained me more than I wanted). On Monday morning I received a phone call from the school nurse. The news was that 'C' had had a seizure. For our own piece of mind, as he was perfectly fine, we picked him up and tried to get him seen by a doctor that day but unfortunately we were unable to get him in. We did take him to the doctor on Tuesday. Since there were no post-ictal (post seizure) signs and it wasn't grand mal the doctor concluded that it wasn't actually a seizure. It was an "event" (not known exactly what it was) but without any other signs and symptoms (and no other medical conditions) we are just going to watch for any other events.

I was forced into a craving to recharge almost immediately following the phone call and I didn't want to talk to any one, however due to the well-meaning actions of a family member I found myself talking about it before I was ready, which drained me even more. Just writing this out is draining.  I'm not recharged yet but hopefully will be soon, as I go about my daily life, and avoid anything that may drain me. I have found myself looking forward to this coming Saturday, as I get a day off and can sleep in.

So please forgive me if I seem distant and don't attend events; I'm just recharging.